Who Am I

Who Am I? is a very profound question, and probably something that you want to spend some quality time meditating upon this very fundamental question. A question that puts your brain to look for an answer, and there are various answers that it generates...

Am I this physical form, the body, eyes, ears, looks, smile, shape, size height, color?

Am I this mental being, this personality, this intelligence, this mind that does all the thinking?

Am I these thoughts, actions and emotions, that describes me, my reactions, what I do, what I think?

Am I what people think I am, father, mother, son, daughter, sibling, colleague, employee, teacher, student, husband, wife?

Am I introvert, extrovert? Am I dog person or cat person?

Am I all of these? or none of these? 

Or are these just many layers that helps me describes myself.

Or am I something beyond all these layers, and something much deeper, subtler.

We have tried to describe ourselves, mold ourselves and try to fit in various situations and not in others. This is still just an attempt to describe one's self. 

This is not question we as humans  are asking for the first time, we have been searching for the answer for many centuries. Through a very ancient scripture the way one try to describe the self, is by describing what it is not... 

• Neither mind, nor intellect, ego nor thought

• Nor the ears, nor the tongue, nor the nose, nor the eyes

• Neither ether, nor earth, nor fire, nor wind

• Nor the energy of life, nor the five vital breaths

• Neither organs of cleansing nor speech, hands, nor feet

• Neither loathing, nor liking, attachment, nor greed

• Nothing of pride or jealousy

• Neither. duty, nor riches, desire, nor release

• Neither virtue, nor vice, pleasure, nor pain

• Holy place, mantra, Vedas (holy scripture), nor Havan (offerings)

• Nor the eater, nor food, nor enjoyment of eating

• Neither fear of death, nor distinction of caste,

• Nor father, nor mother, nor birth have i,

• Nor disciple, nor guru, nor brother, nor friend,

• I am without doubt, I exist without form

• All pervading am I, I give life to the senses...

Yes, towards the end there is a realization, "All pervading am I" and that is the answer....

The one word to describe this is  "spirit", no it's not the spirit that you see in halloween movies, and no, it's not alcoholic beverage... it's not even the soul. 

Since we don't recognize ourselves as spirit on a day to day basis, we will have to force ourselves to imagine as one, irony, right? 

Simply by putting our right hand on our heart, with closed eyes affirm yourself, two to three times in firm voice.... "Mother, I am the Spirit" , try this simple affirmation 2-3 times a day for 3-4 weeks and see if you feel more connected to yourself, see if you feel that you are getting in the right direction with your seeking for "Who am I?" ....